2017 was full of up and downs for me. I graduated from Inter-DEC Montréal and went from many troubles since i come from a foreign country (French Polynesia) and what i’m doing now is something i knew nothing about (3D Modeling, Texturing, VFX, Animation) before coming to Montréal in August 2016. It was hard to learn what i now know. I had to work harder than anyone else to make my way through (new country, quebec french accent, my first winter, etc.) and i did it. Graduated with honor and got a few job offers when i graduated. But many of these were non-paid 2 months internship with no guarantee of being hired. So i turned them down, knowing that this could closed some doors, because i find this kind of practice shady and i didn’t wanted to be reminded as someone that is working for nothing.
I also got an interview at Gameloft but i blew it up when it came to the technical questions even though i knew the answers. I was working full time as a QA tester at that time and this worned me out to the point where i wasn’t prepared for the interview. At all.
I was depressed, quitted my QA job and then i went into hermit mode for 2 months, playing non-stop. And then i decided to work my ass off to add some work on my portefolio, so i worked extra-hard to do so. But at the same time, i applied in over 30 studio and got nothing. And then 3 weeks ago i got a job offer from The Coalition, i was happy and i freaked out at the same time. I went all out to make this right and prepared myself for the job. I went through all the interviews and in the end i didn’t got the job. A buddy of mine got the job, i was happy for him but it crushed me down even harder this time considering the amount of efforts i put into it.
I cried and was angry at myself for not being good enough. But the same day, this same buddy hooked me up to a guy that was looking for a VFX Artist. He asked me to come for an interview and i got the job. I begin in 2 days and this will be my first step in the gaming industry. So i guess it’s not that bad, but i still get a little depressed on the opportunities i missed.
Add that i have to deal with the immigration, because i want to live in Canada, and a debt contracted to make this all happened and no family to support you (i’m by myself), it quickly becomes heavy, but i try to do what i can to be part of this industry and be worthy of the trust of the few people that supports me.
2018 will be the decisive year for me, both professionally and personally.