Journey into Alpha

Hi everybody!
I’m an ex product designer who moved into VFX one year ago. Since then I always spent most of my time doing vfx in 3dsm but 6 months ago I found that games ( the ones I like more) are doing it in a completely different way!!
So after my master in Virtual Reality I jumped straight into Real Time VFX just to discover that I’m quite unable to draw…
Right now I’m aware that in some way I must become more and more good at it but I can’t find any resource that can help my in my journey.
I hope someone of you has some tips or can link me some course for drawings or even telling me his/her story on how she/he started doing alphas!

Stay safe!