My first words are going to be some apologies… I don’t want to sound harsh but I am not in a good mood and a bit disapointed by myself. And that is why I’m here.
I will try my best to sound as positive as possible but these last months have been pretty difficult for me and learning to make some VFX has been my relief and my only goal since I started.
For one month (Almost to the day) I learned the incredible and somewhat complicated world of realtime VFX. For personnal reasons I have to learn as fast as I can. I’m trying my hardest and I’m not alone. Some friends / people I know a bit less but who are kind enough are helping me in my journey.
And I feel bad for these people. Actually, since day one, I’m a bit struggling to understand the basics. In fact, I have to admit, I feel overwhelmed. You have to knw about Colors, Contrast (Someone told me contrast was a big part of FX so… Yeah I have to focus on that point I believe), Composition; Timing… You have to use an Engine (Fortunately I already did know how to use Unreal before beginning my journey to learn how to make some FX…) you have to know how to do 3D modelization, UV Mapping, how to make textures…
Unfortunately I’m the kind of person who learn best by doing. Each time I’m trying to experiment I feel frustrated because I’m not able to do what I’m trying to do.
I’m way better when I have a fixed goal, something to aim at. And when you are by yourself, it can be pretty difficult because you can aim way, way too high… And fail.
I feel stuck in this strange state where you think you know what you are doing but you definitly not. I took a look at some important threads from this community and there is a bunch of really impressive stuff.
But I have this really odd impression people are either totally new to VFX or… Veteran/Professionnal with no in-between.
I’m at a point where I’m trying to replicate / redo what I see. (Mostly VFX from games like League of Legends) or from other Artists on Artstation for example.
I followed a bunch of tutorials on youtube but they are really focused on one particular thing and I’m not always sure they are the “right thing” to learn.
The only really educational I found was by Bruno Afonseca on Artstation. It is really good and with this course I learned a lot of things on Substance Designer.
I’m trying my hardest to learn by myself because I feel that is how most people do… Because, after all, I have no excuse, everything you need is on the internet.
But if I want to be honest with myself, I’m in a kind of situation where I need a little helping hand.
I want to be able to make something “good” or at-least good looking. But I feel what I’m doing is rubbish at best and really bad at worst.
(Some courses look really interesting like, for example, some from VFX Apprentice, but they are way out of my budget. Sadly.)
I’m not waiting anything and it can looks like a rent more than something else. But what I’m looking for is more like… I don’t know, a sort of “guide” of how to improve or where to aim in order to progress more easily. I don’t want to feel stuck forever and I really want to continue because this field is really unique and motivating for me.
So if anyone ever been in a similar situation or had a friend or a colleague, what did you do or what did they do?
Any help is welcome. Really, any.
Ps: I know about the Getting Started thread… and the incredible work of Shannon McSheehan… But it feels unreachable. I don’t know how to say that differently.
Thanks anyway. I’ll keep working and try my best and stay positive.
Have a nice day everyone.